brideofblood

Im happy!

Thu, 30 Oct 2008 03:35:38 GMT

Well the tables have turned and karma proved to be a bitter bitch. Well not to me but to other people. I know that it is wrong to want to have other people have there feelings hurt but hey "such is life". For once u have come out ontop and i am not being cocky. It's just for once something in my life has actually taken a change for the better instead of the worse. I feel like im not making any sense but im just so relieved. Im so happy and im ready to keep moving forward. Thanks to all who have helped me. I have a second interview tomorrow for a job i really want. I pray to go i get it. PLEASE LET ME GET IT!

Love,
Ardis

Osu Shihan!

Sat, 25 Oct 2008 20:06:14 GMT

The entry is dedicated to a man that has helped me through such times that i thought i would not be able to make it through. He is my teacher and my best best friend. He is my Shihan. Before i go any further for those who dont know that means Shihan is the japanese word for master of the dojo. Yes some know i am in a dojo and i take it seriously. Anyways. Shihan has tought me so much. Yet now i have to show him what i have learned from him. I'm ready to go...to move on. Things happen in my life that i cannot change , but you know what, "Such is life". I'm going to brush things off because i would let things build up on me. My Shihan taught me to stop beating up on myself for things that are not my fault. He may be brutally honest, but i need it every now and then. He has a extremely sweet side to him. When im upset he jokes around with me...he will even stpe out of the bounds to hug me and give me a kiss on my forhead and tell me it's okay. "Ichi Ni Issho" ...thats what he told me. "One day, One lifetime". You know what shihan your right. You always have been. Thank you. If i never knew Shihan.....well i would have most likely killed myself a while ago lol.

Osu,
Ardis

I know the truth and it mocks me...i know the truth and it shocks me.

Fri, 24 Oct 2008 16:09:11 GMT

Okay so i got dumped some months ago. It still is fresh to me but to the prick of an ex boyfriend he has seemed to move on quickly. He is a true asshole and i never thought that he was capable of being that way with me. This fuckin guy...i gave my whole heart to this stupid muther fucker ....JUST SO HE COULD STEP ON AND AND LAUGH WHILE HE WAS DOING IT!. I mean....i...i worked so hard and i never loved anyone the way i loved ...i mean ....love him. I'm fuckin torn to pieces and he could care less. Yet he still wants me to be his friend. WHAT THE FUCK. Then the hoe he is talking to write stupid shit knowing that i am going to read it. WHat a pussy ass bitch. I'm really hurt. It's okay. What goes around comes around YOU STUPID FUCK!

FUCK YOU....

AHHHHHHH!!!!!!

Wed, 05 Dec 2007 17:56:02 GMT

School...In plain....It blows! I have these hours of crew work to do and it annoys me that i have to do them. I feel like i had the worst semester of my life. I never thought that college would be so ....well..so fuckin hard. If only kingsborough had a BA program lol. But im going to try my hardest to get by and i will make these crew hours. I WILL PREVAIL! On another note. I have like 3 friends on this thing. I need friends.

Laterz ^_^
Ardis

Stuff

Fri, 30 Nov 2007 03:46:03 GMT

Havent been on in a while. I need friends on here. But yeah school is crazy and so are my karate classes. It's difficult to try and manage things ya know. But yeah. what can i do.

DAMN THIS!

Fri, 22 Dec 2006 05:13:12 GMT

Its the people who take whats not theirs that frustrate and annoy me. I mean why cant people find their own friends. I know im being selfish and stupid but the thing is my friends are the only ones i have. There are my family and when people come in, who were not asked to join the cirlce of friends, try and invade and take over then that shit just pisses me off right there. IS IT REALLY HARD TO FIND YOUR OWN FUCKING FRIENDS, STOP TAKING MINE BITCHES! This mindless rant so did not help me in any way at all

Ardis

Hmmmmmm.

Mon, 05 Jun 2006 23:45:33 GMT

Well i fell left out.I am new to this live journal thingy and i bet i wont make as much friends as i did on myspace.Talk to me people.jeez.But i had an okay day.My final was easy as hell.I just had some cramps in my hand....from constant writing.But i think i might at leaste get a B in that class.Oh well whatever.